Silent Moments in Education An Autoethnography of Learning Teaching and Learning to Teach 1st Edition by Colette Granger ISBN 144264320X 978-1442643208

Acknowledgments p. xi

Prologue – First Circumnarrative: The Sun p. 3

Introduction p. 5
Silent Moments p. 5
Conceptual Framework: If It’s Not One Thing, It’s an Other p. 10
The Shape of the Study: “Every Moment Is Two Moments” p. 14

Part 1 – Second Circumnarrative: The Wind p. 23

Chapter 1: Thinking about Facts
Ethnography, Autoethnography, Discourse Analysis, Psychoanalysis
The Facts p. 25
Ethnography: Ways to Write about Things p. 27
Autoethnography: The Researcher as One of Those Things p. 31
Critical Discourse Analysis and Psychoanalytic Theory: Ways to Think about Things p. 35

Chapter 2: Thinking about Stories
Narrative, Memory, Psychoanalytic Theory
The Field Notes p. 45
Reading the Field Notes: Critical Discourse Analysis p. 46
The Personal p. 52
Narrative and Memory p. 57
Psychoanalytic Concepts: Another Way of Reading p. 59
The Unconscious p. 60
Repression p. 62
Deferred Action p. 63
The Mystic Writing-pad p. 64
Screen Memories p. 66

Chapter 3: Field Notes, Felt-notes, Felt and Noted
Silencing Learning, Silencing Desire
Dropping English: Story/ies as Data p. 70
The Field Notes, Revised, with Feeling (Part I) p. 70
Feel-ed/Felt-notes (Part II) p. 74
Felt, and Noted (Part III) p. 76
Reading the Field/Feel-ed/Felt Notes p. 78
Psychoanalysis Reads p. 80
– Resistance p. 83
– Repression p. 85
– Desire p. 86
Telling and Re-telling: The Same Old Story? p. 91
Difference, Discourse, Desire. And Moving On p. 96

Part 2 – Third Circumnarrative: The Rain p. 101

Chapter 4: Curiosity Kills the Silence
On (Not) Representing Sex in Kindergarten
Mapping the Body: Pictures, Words, Silence p. 104
Constructing the Child, Constructing Sex p. 107
Constricting the Child: “Sitting Up, Shutting Up, and Lining Up” in Kindergarten p. 110
Constructing Appropriateness p. 116
Orders and Hints: Reading the Empty Spaces p. 119

Chapter 5: Another Nice Mess
Teachers Translated by Technology
The Computer and the Teacher p. 131
The Teacher’s Work, the Teacher’s Power: Autonomy and Authority p. 135
A Problem of Identity: The Teacher Relocated p. 140
Self, Love, Work: The Unconscious (in) Teaching p. 145
Narcissism and Transference:
The Teacher in the (Lacanian) Mirror p. 149
Translating and Reflecting:
Computer Screen as Pixellated Mirror p. 153

Part 3 – Fourth Circumnarrative: The Snow p. 163

Chapter 6: Neither Here Nor There
Difficult Moments in Teacher Education
Coming to Theory: Assumptions and Beliefs p. 167
Resisting Theory: Changing Minds and Making Trouble p. 174
Troubling Theory: A Psychoanalytic Reading p. 182
Splitting (through) Theory: The Self Divided p. 186

Chapter 7: Ghosts That Haunt Us
“Forbidden Narratives” of Learning to Teach
Thinking Theory: From Splitting to Insight p. 193
Practising Practicum: Coming to the Data p. 200
Telling the Tale: The Data p. 204
Power and Resistance: Reading Stories with Foucault p. 209
The Ghost and the Host (Teacher):
Reading Stories with Psychoanalysis p. 217
Who Do I Think I Am? The Return of the Repressed p. 218
Who Do I Think You Are?
Transference in the Practicum p. 221
Who Do I Think I’m Kidding? p. 223
Who Do I Think I’m Killing?
Matricide and the Practicum p. 225
Remembering and Repeating, Objects and Stories: What Comes Next? p. 228

Fifth Circumnarrative: The Spring p. 233

(In) Conclusion p. 235
Conversation p. 236
Reflection p. 238
Silence p. 241
Secrets p. 243
Ethics p. 244
Listening p. 247
Caring, Loving, Hoping p. 250

Epilogue – Sixth Circumnarrative: Around and After Words p. 253

Notes p. 257
References p. 271
Author Index p. 303
Subject Index p. 309